The Burning In My Heart
Depression made it difficult for me to access my emotions. When I thought that I needed to hate my abusive ex for hurting me, hate was nowhere to be found....
Tagged: Depression
When Does Time Finally Heal?
How many times will I need to shut you down so that you and your perceptions of me (which I internalized) stop crossing my mind? How long before I believe,...
What’s In A Name?
My ex’s name triggers in me different emotions and thoughts, most of which are negative and overwhelming. I’m still not strong enough to control them or stop this trigger altogether....
When Bad Voices Creep Up On You
Depression is a constant battle. Sometimes you’re able to manage your triggers well enough to not fall apart. Other times the bad voices creep up on you, and convince you...
When You Burst Out Laughing Then Break Into Tears
Sometimes depression is bursting into laughter then breaking into tears. Just like that. In the split of a second.
When You Fight The Bad Inner Voices
I have a punitive mechanism that denies me the enjoyment of any positive thing I may experience. Today was the first day since I started my treatment for depression that...
When You Eat Your Emotions
One of the symptoms of (or maybe a contributing factor to) my depression was losing touch with my emotions. I’m very familiar with sadness. But I struggle with other emotions,...
A Look Inside My Head
There are too many things going on in my head, too many things going on at the same time. I can’t focus. How do I slow these racing thoughts down?...
Can You Wish The Pain Away?
For most of 2015, I wished I would disappear. I thought that maybe if I did, the pain would stop. I didn’t disappear. And the pain didn’t stop. It stayed...
The Story of How I Made A Little Green Friend
When I met Cubebot in the summer of 2013 at a local gadget store, little did I know that we would become inseparable. Back then, I played with him a...
